Lately I have been very overwhelmed with school. I am struggling mostly with the emotional stuff that comes along with clinical. I have seen some really sad, horrible things but I have also got to experience some life changing things as well. I was blessed to be able to see a c-section and seeing a baby come into the world and take it's first breath is something you can't explain.....I felt God in the OR that morning and I know that He has a hand in all the things I am being able to see. He believes in me like I don't believe in myself.....so why do I have such a hard time trusting him? My heart still longs to be a nurse and I know that all this compassion I have will subside somewhat as I get aclimated to clinical and working with real patients, but until then this is my prayer:
Lord: I know we go through this every day but please give me the knowledge as to why I actually wanted to go to nursing school.
Lord, give me the strength to make it through those boring three hour lectures without falling asleep.
Lord, please give me the patience to make it through twelve hour clinicals with instructors that can’t just give you the right answer and on the same note, give the nurses the ability to remember what it was like to be a student and give us just a little more respect.
Lord, give me the endurance to read all the assigned readings and be able to remember it when I am taking a test with four right answers.
Lord, give my family and friends the ability to realize I really am on the edge of insanity.
Finally, Lord, give me the vision to see that one day I will be a real nurse and I will never have to wear this ugly uniform again.
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