City On Our Knees

I found this song and I LOVE IT! I have been thinking for awhile now that I want to on a missions trip. I know it would be hard to work out because of the kids and school but my ultimate goal is to go hopefully to Haiti on some kind of missions trip with some nursing students. Ever since the earthquake in Haiti I think a little piece of my heart has been there. The stories were both heartbreaking and joyful all at the same time. I think that by going there and seeing how the Haitians are surviving despite some horrible circumstances will make me a better person. We don't realize as Americans sometimes the suffering that goes on around the world. I don't want to go to be some sort of voyeur into their suffering but I think that to be a good nurse I have to understand suffering at it's highest level. Why not me? Why not now? God is moving my heart in big ways and this is definitely one of the ways he is leading me to go. I just pray that if an opportunity presents itself that everything here at home would fall into place. Here is a prayer I found that speaks to me...GOD give me the strength to do your work here on Earth if it is your will. This prayer is for passion...passion to go out and give to those who are God's children, same as me, but with circumstances that I can't imagine. I know God is going to send me somewhere to mission but in his time...in the mean time I will continue this prayer to him!
THOU GOD OF MY END
Thou hast given me a fixed disposition
to go forth and spend my life for thee;
If it be thy will let me proceed in it;
if not, then revoke my intentions.
All I want in life is such circumstances
as may best enable me to serve thee in the world;
To this end I leave all my concerns in thy hand,
but let me not be discouraged,
for this hinders my spiritual fervency;
Enable me to undertake some task for thee,
for this refreshes and animates my soul,
so that I could endure all hardships and labours,
and willingly suffer for thy name.
But, 0 what a death it is to strive and labour,
to be always in a hurry and yet do nothing!
Alas, time flies and I am of little use.
0 that I could be a flame of fire in thy service,
always burning out in one continual blaze.
Fit me for singular usefulness in this world.
Fit me to exult in distresses of every kind
if they but promote the advancement of thy kingdom.
Fit me to quit all hopes of the world's friendship,
and give me a deeper sense of my sinfulness.
Fit me to accept as just desert from thee
any trial that may befall me.
Fit me to be totally resigned to the denial of pleasures I desire,
and to be content to spend my time with thee.
Fit me to pray with a sense of the joy of divine communion,
to find all times happy seasons to my soul,
to see my own nothingness,
and wonder that I am allowed to serve thee.
Fit me to enter the blessed world where no unclean thing is,
and to know thee with me always.